Something a friend of mine wrote, it really touched me:
I never knew how much I'd regret going away. Senior year of high school that's all I wanted. I just wanted to go as far as I possibly could. How I wish I had been a bit more thoughtful. If only I knew how much I meant to you. As an only child, I didn't have any siblings to miss,and I didn't mind leaving you both behind.
To tell you the truth mom and dad that's why I left. We always had our differences, for me they were too much to handle, but you always said that wasn't true. How was I supposed to know you would leave me? How was I to know I would never see you both again. I thought I'd leave and time would fix everything. I guess time got ahead of me, taking you both away before our wounds even had the chance to heal. I planned to come back soon, but I was too late.
I'm sorry for not understanding, I'm sorry for leaving. I was the only light of your eyes, the only pride of your lives. And I left you both alone to pursue my own life and dreams. It was only later that I discovered your true pride in me. The way you secretly boasted to your friends about your perfect daughter. Yet you never wanted me to be vain, so you never said anything to me. And now you both are gone forever, never to come back.
Is this how you felt when I left you that one September day? Oh mom, who will scold me for not working hard enough now? Oh dad, who will remind me to always do the best I possibly can? I misunderstood your constant advice and encouragement as constant disappointment and weariness of me, if only I knew. Will you ever forgive me? I never meant to hurt you both.
I pray that every child will realize how much their parents love them. Though it may not seem like it at times, they're always proud of you. They say one can never truly appreciate something until its gone. Please treasure your parents while you can and take my experience as advice. I hope no one ever has to go through the regret I feel every day.
2 comments:
its kind of strange how people usually come their true realizations through the most tragic moments... it takes something bad to happen to finally catch their attention.
but the realizations can be good tho and make a bit of a life changing attitude towards something. taking it in to learn one's mistake or learn something from it to better oneself.
my words right now are probably really pointless right now, but just a lil comment I had a response to the letter =]
I guess sometimes I feel like my parents are just always disappointed in me. But I think that's because they know I could be better. I just wish they did in a more supporting way rather than make me feel incompetent with their demeaning words. I know they don't mean to sometimes, but they do, they really do.
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