Ashes, Ashes, We All Fall Down

I walk outside to see a flaming ball of red. I can't believe it's the sun. Every breath I take is choked up with the scent of ashes. Fire, Fire go away and don't come back another day. Return the sky to its normal hue and take your dreaded ashes away with you. These horrible ashes. They're the remains of burnt memories. The remains of love, hope, dreams and everything in between.

So many of my friends have become homeless overnight. Others fleeing for their lives. How can you be so cruel? Your scorching flames have no mercy. Your choking smoke has no compassion. I sit here and pray for those who have no more hope. I sit here and hope for those who can do nothing but pray.

In these times all I can remember is the last verse of a nursery rhyme: "Ashes, ashes, we all fall down."

Why?

Why are you always better than me?
Why do your achievements always shadow mine?
Why aren't I good enough?
Why is everything I do no surprise?
Why am I so nice to you when I know you'll stab me
as soon as I turn around?
Why am I so honest to you?
Why is it I know you lie yet never say anything?
Why haven't I told you how much I hate your lies?
Why don't I have the courage to stand up to you?
Why do you think I have no heart?
Why don't you understand I, too, cry at night?
Why are you so stubborn?
Why do I always give in?
Why can't I control myself anymore?
Why am I having more and more regrets?
Why? Why? Why?
Why can't I be who I want to be?

JV Tennis Makes it to League

Something I forgot to publish, I found it today faithfully waiting for me in my drafts. Thanks Rachel McMillen for your edits and advice on how to write a sports blog!

JV Tennis Makes it to League

On November 5, Fountain Valley's junior varsity team competed in the league semi-finals at Edison. Ranked fourth in the league, the FV girls played against some of the best girls in Orange County, including girls from Esperanza, Los Alamitos, Newport Harbor, Edison and Marina.

FV started out with 6 spots total, three doubles and three singles. Unfortunately though, they lost 3 spots after the first round. Doubles players Alaa Abu-Adas (’10), Lillian Pham (’10), Kinsey Brose (’10) and Komal Ram (’11) as well as singles player Julie Le (’10) put up a good fight, but it wasn't enough to beat Newport Harbor, Los Alamitos or Edison.

Doubles players Tiffany Le (’11) and Darlene Tieu (’11) had better luck though, beating Newport Harbor 8-7 and moving into Round 2. Singles player Marian Bhan (’11) won a close match against Newport Harbor and Tran Phan (’10), also a singles player, crushed Marina 8-1. Both players also moved into Round 2.

Round 2 was tough and unfortunately the Barons’ singles could not beat the Griffins singles to win the semi-finals.

However, across the court Le and Tieu were victorious in both their doubles matches against Esperanza, the top school in league. Scoring 6-2 in the first match and 6-3 in the second one, the doubles team ensured their spot in the finals tomorrow.

The girls did their best and though they were fourth in league, they beat many players from the top three schools. The girls JV team hasn't had a final spot in league for years so it will make for some very exciting matches.

Election 2008

The election's tomorrow.
Who will I vote for?
I frankly do not care who wins.
I don't care who runs this country.
Call me ignorant. Call me what you want.
That still won't make me care.
Why?
Because I want someone who will help me.
I want someone I can believe in.
Someone who won't let me down.
Someone who can really bring change.
Change. Change. That's all I've heard.
Stop telling me what you WILL do, show
me what you ARE doing.
I want someone who will end world hunger.
Someone who can stand up to cancer.
Go on with the war, taking lives is easy,
it's all you know how to do.
Ever tried saving them?
I want someone to cure our country of its
worst disease - hatred.
Someone who will fight for me.
Someone who can put a smile on every
orphan's face.
Have you ever thought the millions you
spend on your campaign can be used to
save lives?
I want someone who's strong enough to say
the truth.
Someone who will stand up when all have fallen.
I'm tired of your lies, do you honestly expect me
to believe you?
Maybe I expect too much.
But look who I'm expecting it from?
If the head of the country has the power
to destroy thousands of innocent lives,
then he has the power to save thousands
more.
If he can afford to waste billions on war,
he can spend billions on alleviating poverty.
Go ahead. Call me what you want.
But I have my own reasons for not
supporting either candidate.

Not Again.

Here I am posting on my blog at two in the morning.
Why do some things never change?
I try not to procrastinate. I really do.
But something's not working because four hours before school,
I still have four subjects worth of homework left.
I envy people who manage their time well.
I know I can accomplish so much more if only I organize myself.
Sigh Well I should stop complaining on my blog and start working.
I'm am not looking forward to the rest of my junior year.

Exhausted.

It was no joke when people told me junior year was the hardest year of high school. It's been four days and I'm already exhausted. But on the bright side, there's only 176 more to go. 176 more days of homework, tests and quizzes in every single class. Despite all that I amaze myself.

How easily I give in to procrastination. I can already see that I have to change my habits quick or suffer. It's 9:00 and I haven't started any of my homework yet. What am I doing instead? Updating the Baron Banner blogs. Posting some random post on my blog. Reading random news on Yahoo. I really should get to work. But why is procrastination still so tempting?

school.is.finally.over.