Empty.
There's nothing left.
No happiness or peace
No sorrow or grief either .
Not a bit of comfort.
Not a hint of torment.
Nope, there's nothing there.
Try and fill it with love, hope, anything.
Try and fail.
For there's one little tear in that heart's lining.
Now there's no chance for keeping anything anymore.
And what's worse than a heart full of pain?
A heart full of hate maybe?
No, it's an empty heart.
That's what hurts more than anything.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Going Away
Something a friend of mine wrote, it really touched me:
I never knew how much I'd regret going away. Senior year of high school that's all I wanted. I just wanted to go as far as I possibly could. How I wish I had been a bit more thoughtful. If only I knew how much I meant to you. As an only child, I didn't have any siblings to miss,and I didn't mind leaving you both behind.
To tell you the truth mom and dad that's why I left. We always had our differences, for me they were too much to handle, but you always said that wasn't true. How was I supposed to know you would leave me? How was I to know I would never see you both again. I thought I'd leave and time would fix everything. I guess time got ahead of me, taking you both away before our wounds even had the chance to heal. I planned to come back soon, but I was too late.
I'm sorry for not understanding, I'm sorry for leaving. I was the only light of your eyes, the only pride of your lives. And I left you both alone to pursue my own life and dreams. It was only later that I discovered your true pride in me. The way you secretly boasted to your friends about your perfect daughter. Yet you never wanted me to be vain, so you never said anything to me. And now you both are gone forever, never to come back.
Is this how you felt when I left you that one September day? Oh mom, who will scold me for not working hard enough now? Oh dad, who will remind me to always do the best I possibly can? I misunderstood your constant advice and encouragement as constant disappointment and weariness of me, if only I knew. Will you ever forgive me? I never meant to hurt you both.
I pray that every child will realize how much their parents love them. Though it may not seem like it at times, they're always proud of you. They say one can never truly appreciate something until its gone. Please treasure your parents while you can and take my experience as advice. I hope no one ever has to go through the regret I feel every day.
I never knew how much I'd regret going away. Senior year of high school that's all I wanted. I just wanted to go as far as I possibly could. How I wish I had been a bit more thoughtful. If only I knew how much I meant to you. As an only child, I didn't have any siblings to miss,and I didn't mind leaving you both behind.
To tell you the truth mom and dad that's why I left. We always had our differences, for me they were too much to handle, but you always said that wasn't true. How was I supposed to know you would leave me? How was I to know I would never see you both again. I thought I'd leave and time would fix everything. I guess time got ahead of me, taking you both away before our wounds even had the chance to heal. I planned to come back soon, but I was too late.
I'm sorry for not understanding, I'm sorry for leaving. I was the only light of your eyes, the only pride of your lives. And I left you both alone to pursue my own life and dreams. It was only later that I discovered your true pride in me. The way you secretly boasted to your friends about your perfect daughter. Yet you never wanted me to be vain, so you never said anything to me. And now you both are gone forever, never to come back.
Is this how you felt when I left you that one September day? Oh mom, who will scold me for not working hard enough now? Oh dad, who will remind me to always do the best I possibly can? I misunderstood your constant advice and encouragement as constant disappointment and weariness of me, if only I knew. Will you ever forgive me? I never meant to hurt you both.
I pray that every child will realize how much their parents love them. Though it may not seem like it at times, they're always proud of you. They say one can never truly appreciate something until its gone. Please treasure your parents while you can and take my experience as advice. I hope no one ever has to go through the regret I feel every day.
Monday, April 14, 2008
Dear Diary
Dear Diary,
Where have you gone? It's now I need you most. I need someone to listen, someone to understand. Your comforting pages, your perfect lines. Where are they now? You were my shelter in the storm, my candle in the dark. So where are you? Have you given up on me too? Am I that hopeless that you've deserted me like everyone else? You were there through thick and thin, through day and night, keeping my every secret safe. But why have you chosen now to disappear? Was my frustration too strong for your pages? Were my tears too many for you to absorb? Were my words too mixed up for your perfection? Were my thoughts too confusing for you understand? I'll try to do better, I promise you I will. Just give me another chance.
Where have you gone? It's now I need you most. I need someone to listen, someone to understand. Your comforting pages, your perfect lines. Where are they now? You were my shelter in the storm, my candle in the dark. So where are you? Have you given up on me too? Am I that hopeless that you've deserted me like everyone else? You were there through thick and thin, through day and night, keeping my every secret safe. But why have you chosen now to disappear? Was my frustration too strong for your pages? Were my tears too many for you to absorb? Were my words too mixed up for your perfection? Were my thoughts too confusing for you understand? I'll try to do better, I promise you I will. Just give me another chance.
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